different religion

r malay guys better than chinese guys?..erm...sometimes i really think like tat..but y chinese gals avoid to marry a malay guy?..no need to ask..sure the answer is if we marry malay guys, we hav to follow their religion..tat's the only reason!!..isn't it??

when i was in perkanpungan activity, whole KARISMA group is malays..my part is karaoke competition..my ketua is a malay guy..erm..i think he had gf dy..hehe..i confirm i wont fall in love wif him..very sure!..although he is a good person..n another publisity head also is a malay guy..he is also a good guy..

dunno y all KARISMA group member said my ketua n i........got "ai mei"..huh?..wat the.....really weird la..haha..i think they also wont easily fall in love wif people who hav different religions..coz i hav malay gal frens..although they like to see handsome chinese guys, they alwaz control themselves..they know they cant marry them!!

i prefer to marry a husband who hav the same religion wif me..but i wont reject my husband who hav different religion wif me..for example "yang ren"..haha!!..but confirm one i wont marry a malay!!

~lOvE~

wat is love?..everyone wan true love..but do everyone know who is his/her true love?..for me, i dunno..becoz i dun even dating be4!

recently i met him again..im still remember tat time when he chased me..i thought i really fall in love wif him at tat time..but dunno y we cant be together till now..i saw him alwaz on phone..i got a bit sad or jealous..i dunno y im like tat..till now i still like him?..or juz bu gan xing becoz dunno y we havent start the relationship at tat time?..im confused..

i hav a stupid thought..if a guy chase me, i will ask him whether he still love me or not..if he doesnt..tat means i will choose the guy who chase me at tat moment..im really stupid..although i feel like he had a gf now..i still wanna think like tat..so stupid...n bad!..y i behave like tat??!!..haiz..really dun understand..

love...love...love...i think best frens r easier than bf/gf..is tat so??..it is becoz if frens, we can talk watever we wan..but we cant talk watever we wan wif our bf or gf..haha..however, bf or gf will giv us good care more than our frens..so "mao dun".. >.<

"perkampungan"

almost 3 days passed..now still stay at college..hav activity...many things hav to do...although sometimes very boring..still hav many advantages..

i learn new things in this "perkampungan"..learn how to 'minus 1" a song..how to convert a video to mp3 n many many interesting experiences..through tis activity, the relationship between malay frens n i become closer..becoz we prepare many things together..every day 8.30 am start to work until 6.30 pm rest..we start again from 8.30 pm till midnite we all work together..from tis, i saw the power of teamwork..hope KARISMA (Karnival Intelek Siswi) can jalan dengan lancar la!!..coz tat's out hardwork!!..haha^^
still left a week..i can bk home again..yeah!!..but 30th hav to bk here again...wuwuwu~~~

today many bad things happen to me..laptop hang more than 5 times!..haiz..i scare my laptop will spoilt!..coz juz bought tat!..besides, tonite i hav to sleep alone again!!..the malay gals move to her fren's room dy!!..leave me alone here..i wanna cry dy...wuwuwu~~sad..sad..dunno tonite will sleep well or not, or i will dream bad again??!!..OMG!!..

who can help me????..aikss..hope got people help me or hope tis 7 days pass faster!! so tat i can go bk my home sweet home~~ wat a bad day!!

怕怕!!

今天凌晨发生了一件很奇怪又令我害怕的事..好恐怖!..不懂是自己一个人睡就胡思乱想, 还是真的有发生..那时的感觉好真..
我在睡梦中突然醒了..因为听到有人用锁匙开我房门但又开不到的声音..我就起身看看, 那时好想打开门看看到底是谁..可能是要偷东西??!!..还是谁要进来我的房间!!..我不知道..睡醒后还记得那时我醒来时有看一下电话的时间..是五点十九分左右..
为什么我会觉得很奇怪呢?..因为我竟然也梦见了那个情景! 我看见的是爸爸要开我的门, 叫我出去, 因为我的朋友来了, 在外面等了我很久..但是最后也还是开不到...所以我不知道五点多发生的那件事到底是真还是假!!..如果是真的, 那我真感觉毛骨悚然!!
幸亏今天我不会是一个人睡, 因为来了另一个马来同胞..可以陪我了..至少不会那么害怕...
谢谢上天安排了一个人来陪我!!! =)

自私

前几天突然有一种很令人感到讨厌的感觉涌上我心里..我觉得华文班的学长哥哥不喜欢我,甚至可能讨厌我吧!!..还记得有一次,华文班有个会议..会议前下了毛毛雨,忽然得知有个朋友的大星可以驾车载他去出席会议,那就是学长哥哥..我也就搭了这顺风车...哪知会议完后,有个庆生联谊活动,因为贪玩,就想留下,但我那个朋友就回宿舍了..过后,大家都要散会了..有个学姐不忍心看我一个人天黑黑走回宿舍..就问那学长可以载我吗..他竟然拒绝了!!..但他过后竟可以答应载其他两位女生回宿舍..他都不愿意载我..那时的情景多尴尬啊!!..从这件事可见那学长多不喜欢我~~~好想哭哦!!

我问了一个跟我同样宿舍村的男生朋友意见..他竟然说我给他感觉可能是一个不顾别人,只顾自己感受的自私鬼..在他眼里,我是一个不想把自己牵涉到麻烦事的人,我是一个不太愿意做麻烦事的人,我是一个尽量避免麻烦事的人...我是吗??..这种评语好痛心哦..令我感到好伤心哦..

我是这样的人吗??..我承认我可能是一个不会把朋友看得太重的人,很多本星座书也是这样说白羊座的..但说到自私,我真的是那样的吗??!!..原来我的朋友是这样想我的..在朋友心目中,我到底是怎样的人啊??是很糟糕的吗??..如果是那样,那我岂不是做人做到很失败吗!!!

my new blog~~

tis is my second blog..

wish myself happy to manage tis blog!!

jia you~~